dearest

It would be a lie if I say that I dont have good time while chatting with u. It was always fun everytime we talked about everything. Sorry if am over curious asking about your personal life. I do respect your limits. But sometime I cant accept it, none ever did that to me. So then I started to think "am I that bad so people not talk to me?"

The other issue I have are:

"who the hell this person am talking to?" 

"is he a good person?"

"why is he so strict? is he a dangerous person?"

"what am I let my self into?"

Even when I am writing this the question "who is this guy? who is this guy? who is this guy?" keep coming. 

You want me to think that you are real, but why you act yourself as a stranger to me? Am I deserved to be treated that way? are you really gonna talk about it when we meet even if I dont ask? I am trying to believe you, but I cant afford the feeling when the time comes and you say nothing. 

You always said "we talked when we meet." But that thing eats me inside, I had to keep my curiousity more than a year. Totally horrible feeling, when you called someone with his not real name.