surprise surprise

God really puts me on some drama this past two weeks. After a sudden change when he left, another shocking news came toward me.

If I may count, spent like hours of crying when realizing I live on my own again. I didn't let myself to stop crying, just because I felt like doing it. That is kind a way of meditation for me. I felt relief, tho got swollen eyes.

The story went on when a close friend of mine told me that she has to change compartment. In that sense, I won't see her on a daily basis like I did before. She told me that just 2 days after my guy left. I felt lost. Why now?

Another shocking event happened at office. A coleague, who always I argue with, resign. I didn't know what happen. Tho sometime we didnt get along so well, we've spent almost 3 years work together. Surprise.

I am totally lost. Alone.

I feel like crying for those big changes, but I cant shed a tear. I guess am getting use to accept when people are leaving. In the end, all the best I can do is walk my life myself.