surprise surprise

God really puts me on some drama this past two weeks. After a sudden change when he left, another shocking news came toward me.

If I may count, spent like hours of crying when realizing I live on my own again. I didn't let myself to stop crying, just because I felt like doing it. That is kind a way of meditation for me. I felt relief, tho got swollen eyes.

The story went on when a close friend of mine told me that she has to change compartment. In that sense, I won't see her on a daily basis like I did before. She told me that just 2 days after my guy left. I felt lost. Why now?

Another shocking event happened at office. A coleague, who always I argue with, resign. I didn't know what happen. Tho sometime we didnt get along so well, we've spent almost 3 years work together. Surprise.

I am totally lost. Alone.

I feel like crying for those big changes, but I cant shed a tear. I guess am getting use to accept when people are leaving. In the end, all the best I can do is walk my life myself.

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Tik..tok..tik..tok... Enggak berasa nih kawan, dah hampir kelar semester tujuh. Semester delapan tinggal beberapa waktu lagi masuk ke dalam kehidupan kita. Dapat dipastikan dengan masuknya semester delapan kita makin sibuk dengan urusan masing-masing. Yang kecil pasti sibuk dengan urusan job tre-nya. Yang cowok pun sepertinya demikian. Yang jilbab gw kurang ngerti neh dia sibuk job tre, kuliah, atau keduanya. Sedangkan jilbab yang lain pasti sibuk dengan organisasinya dan dibantu oleh si pasangan hidupnya. Teman sejawatnya. Sedangkan yang gingsul, rambut panjang, rambut pendek kaca mata, dan gw pasti sibuk dengan kuliah dan job tre. Kalau gw sih ada tambahannya, yaitu bersenang-senang. Hehehe...aku akan menikmati semester besok yang tidak banyak kuliah. Yihaa....setidaknya dengan sedikit kuliah gw bisa mengerjakan sesuatu yang gw dah dari dulu pengen dilakuin. Asik..asik... Tetapi yang jadi masalah gw mesti bersenang-senang sama siapa. Toh, lo semua aja mungkin sibuk dan entah ada di m...

veinti ocho

Another number to add. This time I kinda relax to face it. No excited feelings, nor ignore the date. It came all natural. Just want to take a moment of silent for meself. Some big steps in life I've already taken before this number came. I am now, living mylife as an expats, a little wish I whispered ages ago. I left family back home, so it let me feel homesick of being around them. The bold note for this time is I am in the country I have longed since years ago, India. One time I told myself to add the number in India. And, here I am. How wonderful life is. Especially when the love one is there next to me. I want a memento, a present for me. I will have it later and keep you updated. Namaste.

fail flirt #5

cowok : semalem saya hunting foto bulan. nih, lihat! cewek 1: waaaah...baguuuuusssss... cewek 2: keren banget, nih. Jago, yah, kamu motretnya. cewek 3: nyesel enggan ikutan semalem, bulannya cakep banget. saya : lo download gambar orang terus dipindah ke memory card terus mengaku itu hasil jepretan lo, kan? cowok : berisik lo!

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