when you can't hold it no more

Halo baby,

How are you doing, Sam?

I've been through some ugly days. I am still healthy, nothing hurt but I feel gloomy. The one I care the most isn't here anymore. I am lost. 

I put my attention on him. Took care of him. Wonderfull feeling I had. That kind of feeling I wanted since ages. In a blink of an eye, everything change. None that I can take care of and to put all my attention to.

All my defences broke down and turned me weak. 

What about us, Sam? I want you than anything else, but it scares me if I am losing you all of sudden. How can I control myself for my lost? Because Sam, my precious, I am too weak to prepare myself for the worst.

I still want to believe that we can be together, happily. I have no progress now but y feelings for you still strong.

Love,

Me