Bambino,,, Forgot to tell you about the latest newcomer. Her name is Janeeta, people said her name is a wish for her to be a strong lady in future. She is adorable with blushy cheeks.  Speaking about name, the ones that catch my attention the most is Samudera and Borneo. Strong name with beautifull meaning behind. And also those names are afer two beautifull islands in Indonesia. Lovely. Aniway, will tell you how she is when I meet her. Wish to have a good time with her soon, and also the most awaited one is you,Sam.

Come on! Go figure it, Guido!

as cute as Joey as smart as Ross but, nothing to compare with Chandler.

it is just to cute. Gave the inspiration for all those narsistic momma out there.  pict is taken from here

Remember the time when we walked that night singing "Help, I need somebody not just anybody"? That was beautifull. But, I don't think you would care to remember.

Help me Luisa... Help me mamma... Help me anyone...

I've been warning myself not to fall in love to any Korean handsome treat. And, I succed. Seriously. But, I can not resist for the Korean cuteness like these guys. Kim Min Yool (5 yo) Lee Junsu (7 yo) Everytime I fall in love it comes to consequence the feeling like to learn their language. Should I learn Korean to please me? I don't think so, given the fact so many languages I dumped before. But, if loving them would be a sin, I am okay to live in hell forever. Aigoo!

let's laugh together Luisa

In one moment I thought I can see the light, but then he came to blow it off.

God really puts me on some drama this past two weeks. After a sudden change when he left, another shocking news came toward me. If I may count, spent like hours of crying when realizing I live on my own again. I didn't let myself to stop crying, just because I felt like doing it. That is kind a way of meditation for me. I felt relief, tho got swollen eyes. The story went on when a close friend of mine told me that she has to change compartment. In that sense, I won't see her on a daily basis like I did before. She told me that just 2 days after my guy left. I felt lost. Why now? Another shocking event happened at office. A coleague, who always I argue with, resign. I didn't know what happen. Tho sometime we didnt get along so well, we've spent almost 3 years work together. Surprise. I am totally lost. Alone. I feel like crying for those big changes, but I cant shed a tear. I guess am getting use to accept when people are leaving. In the end, all the...

went through my contact list today and found yours accidentally. How are you Tio?

some say 'home, where the heart is'. What I found today: Colonies of cicak and cockroaches. The empty desk Left over of the last sip of yerba mate The half-botled vodka Pair of helmets Two pairs of stinky old shoes The unsent seeds Messy bed and strangely really spacious Papers full of bahasa Indonesia learning The empty drawers Adele and Bob Dylan keep playing 'Make You Feel My Love' The 'Catch Me If You Can' book --- Unfortunately I couldn't find my heart.  I can't call it home anymore.

Halo baby, How are you doing, Sam? I've been through some ugly days. I am still healthy, nothing hurt but I feel gloomy. The one I care the most isn't here anymore. I am lost.  I put my attention on him. Took care of him. Wonderfull feeling I had. That kind of feeling I wanted since ages. In a blink of an eye, everything change. None that I can take care of and to put all my attention to. All my defences broke down and turned me weak.  What about us, Sam? I want you than anything else, but it scares me if I am losing you all of sudden. How can I control myself for my lost? Because Sam, my precious, I am too weak to prepare myself for the worst. I still want to believe that we can be together, happily. I have no progress now but y feelings for you still strong. Love, Me

I think I am pretty sure what I feel

Always adore my uni friends' pictures. They captured things beautifully. Love every perspectives they are taken.  www.pictlonic.blogspot.com one of my favorite

I think he is extremely cute. What do you think, Sam?

Querido Tio, I did it! Visited Museum Asia-Afrika with same-like-minded friend. Thank you. Regards, Me PS: until we talk again.

A gentle touch lied on my shoulder. "Don't be so annoying and just deal with it," she said. I haven't told her everything. Just some hunches sliped out of my mouth. She never knew my deepest thought. Lemme tell you now.  I don't feel good when I can't talk about my thought. I wont annoy anyone if only people listen to me. There are evidences, I believe my feeling is correct about that, but you let me down by saying "you are totally wrong!" I know how you would react over something. The question comes out when there is something similar happened to you and you reacted differently. It seems like you are  enjoying it and at the same time protecting someone, unfortunately it is not me.  Please answer this, how can I deal it myself when I want you to help me to deal it. I am sick with that kind of ignorance, I have had it much. 

A collegue, after days not contacting each other, texted me "I got a weird dream last nite about you!" Based on my experience, and also others, that kind statement sometime is really weird or even scary. "You hand me your  wedding invitation. Crying and say 'If you don't come, I will not come back'." Laughed all I can do. I took it cool, but in the other hand couldn't let myself to figure out 'what kind of sign that dream is trying to tell us?'. Her texted succed make me to think about my wish, that I set some years ago. I would love to die on my 30. Yes, on my 30 not 30-ish. A wish that whispered in my ear. The first time I heard about it, I smiled "that is awesome!" I started to dream about how I would die someday. I don't want any pain, accident, or desease that caused me dead. All I want is just die, I go to bed and never open my eyes again. It happened to my cousin, that is beautifull. But, no way for kil...

I want to be an expert. And I want to be one know.  Just trust me that I have sort of experience (my own and also others, but mostly from other :P) in flirting. My method for this shortlisted list are direct observation and contemplation. I forgot how many samples I used to sum information. It took more than 1 year observation, so you can see I didn't rush in making conclusion. For your information, perhaps most of the listed stuff a bit girlie it is because easier for me to see it when a girl does it. Why? because am also feminine and might have done it as well.  So here it goes the list: Execcesive texting from the tiny one to the big one. But mostly just a little stuff like 'I lost 2 hairs today" or "I cut my nails". Those sweaty litty thing is just to make a conversation since they don't know what to say. If something big issue coming, mostly it is not what this flirty people's interest but the other party. Talking about politics tha...

Beberapa waktu lalu, sempat lari sejenak dari Jakarta ke Jogjakarta. Sekitar tujuh hari saya menghabiskan waktu di kota yang sempat menjadi pusat pemerintahan sementara negara Indonesia tercinta. Kali ini, saya belum mau menceritakan lokasi wisata yang saya kunjungi. ada hal lain yang ingin saya ceritakan, tetapi tenang soal perjalanan pasti akan saya tuliskan juga di publikasi berikutnya. Seperti lazimnya calon turis, saya sangat senang menghadapi hari esok. Sudah terbayang panasnya Jogjakarta dan santainya kehidupan di kota itu. Tetapi, sayangnya, partner jalan saya justru nyeri leher dan pundak sehari sebelum keberangkatan. Otomatis dia tidak bisa angkat ransel. Nyeri, begitu ia beralasan. Sesampainya di Jogja pertanyaan kedua kami setelah "penginapan murah di mana?" adalah "tempat pijat yang enak dimana?". Partner saya ingin segera meluruskan lehernya dan menikmati liburan kami. setelah keliling-keliling akhirnya kami menemukan pijat tradisional. tampak...